Even though my time in Tanzania has come to an end there are a few more stories I want to share but it’s the beginning of the New Year so maybe I’ll synchronize with the world for this one day 🙂
I used to do New Year’s Resolutions – I don’t think I’ve done them for the past 2 years though. My friend adopted this slogan about a year ago “No Expectations.” For almost everything she said “No Expectations.” I used to get upset..how can you base a friendship on “No expectations.” Yet , with time – I’ve realized it is a great slogan to live by. It’s hard because it’s become so human to expect. We expect things from our friends, our family , our life. We all have a plan – a plan of life.
We expect certain things to come from this New Year but don’t lock yourself in – a lot more can come from this year than you could ever expect.
I think we all know our new years resolutions – or at least know our goals – and as each one gets reached – one falls away and most of the time another one appears in its place – a higher goal that helps us get to that ultimate goal we want to get to – our purpose of life ..
This year I really didn’t expect to get what I got. I graduated ( which I did expect) – and that was huge for me because it was one thing I had started and had finished – at some points it really didn’t seem to end and I got away with doing the bare minimum and towards the end I just wanted to get to the summit – get my certificate and move on to my next goal. There were times I felt like University sucked everything out of me yet I had brilliant souls suffering with me (my friends) so it was bearable. That degree now holds many memories that I think are impossible to forget and I’ve made lifelong friends who have taught me so much about life.
But really the best part of my year was the last 4 months – or at least it was a new awakening. I knew when I graduated I didn’t want to go straight back to school – I always knew I wanted to get involved with development work but didn’t know which exact area and so being a volunteer in Tanzania was a perfect opportunity to find out where I wanted to specialize in. It was Africa and it was a new country that I could explore . I didn’t expect much from it. I wasn’t exactly sure what I was going to be there – I knew I wanted to be there for 3 months but everyone wasn’t sure if I’d last that long – including me – I didn’t know what I was getting myself into. My friends had told me that you shower out of buckets and you had to handwash your own clothes…so I really didn’t know what I was getting myself into. I knew that I had wanted to come about 2 years ago with Can Aid but I probably would have come for a month max and I’m not sure I would have gained all that I did gain – so I just really closed my eyes and jumped – with no expectations.
My first day I didn’t think I would last for more than a week and somehow I stayed there for 3 and a half months and had the adventure of a lifetime.The orgaization itself was amazing in its flexibility in the sense that I would be doing my normal thing in Kibaha and then the CAO would come up to me and say something like , ” I’m going to Arusha for a graduation ceremony there ( with another NGO) , do you want to come?” and I would go along with it. Never did I think that I would be going to Arusha the very next day which is about a 8 hour drive and be coming back literally the day after but it was an opportunity to go see another part of Tanzania. I didn’t expect to see so much of this country nor did I expect to be surrounded by such inspiring people. I don’t even remember what I expected to be honest..
Basically a nice slogan to maybe start this year off with is “No expectations” or as another friend once told me ” Plan not to Plan.”
PS – Pictures are starting to get uploaded.. 🙂